My Own Physical Exhaustion
Hello Dear Followers,
It’s pretty late right now, but after a few weeks of not writing or sharing a blog post with you, I thought I’d hop on for a moment.
I am in the middle of reading “Wild” by Cheryl Strayed, and she is now deep in her hike in Pacific Crest Trail. She’s now talking about the physical toll this hike is doing to her, and all I could think was, I could never do this much physical labor on my body, or take a hike.. exercise.. whatever.
But I realized as I went on reading that I had. Ok, so maybe not the same as Strayed had, but her account brought me back to 2005. This was the year I left working retail to work at a spa and salon…( okay, so you’re probably wondering how on earth there is a similarity.) Trust me there is.
I had gone through some terribly depressing times then, anxiety ridden, angry, sad… you name it. And working in my hometown’s mall, just wasn’t helping any. I always saw someone I knew! And all I wanted to do at the time was getting away from seeing people I didn’t necessarily want to see.
This is when (by the Grace of God) I got a job a salon and spa in a town away. I didn’t work as a front desk girl either, I worked as a spa attendant. I worked folding laundry, washing laundry, serving food, cleaning the spa and salon. This was unlike anything I had ever done or ever dreamed of doing.
It was physically challenging, I was on my feet five days a week, constantly cleaning, washing, folding etc. It was physically draining. But what did it do for me? It helped me work through my shit. Work through the intensity of the pain I was feeling at the time. I found a new part of me, and one that was coming back to life as time went on.
I was eating a lot again, ( I hadn’t eaten properly in months), I was sleeping (because I was exhausted) and I was thinking of better things than before. It was my life saver.
Now, you’re probably still wondering what the comparison is, well it’s the working of the body to calm the mind. And I think by what I am reading of Strayed’s account, this is exactly what she is doing, she’s on a new path (no pun intended) as was I during that period in my life.
When you are in this state, it is so important to find your outlet, whether it be a hike in the woods or some other meditative exercise. I did.
Until next time.